I'm feeling defeated!
I'm frustrated. I don't know why nothing is working out for us. All we want is for Brian to get a job so we can support our family. Brian didn't get the job in Bakersfield. I don't understand. We thought for sure that he had this job. We prayed so much. Anytime I thought about it I sent up a little prayer. Brian fasted almost every Sunday. I'm not sure what we are supposed to do more. It kills me to see how Brian is reacting to this. I hate seeing him upset or discouraged. He thinks he is a failure. It breaks my heart to see him like this.
I know that Heavenly Father loves us and cares but it is so easy to feel forgotten. After Brian found out I just crumbled. We were counting on this job. Relying on our savings account isn't going to support us forever. I'm not sure what Heavenly Father wants from us.
I knew I needed to read my scriptures. I used the search bar to search "trials". This was the first thing that popped up for me.
"I have Heard their prayers, and will accept their offering; and it is expedient in me that they should be brought thus far for a trial of their faith."
Doctrine and Covenants 105:19
That was exactly what I needed to hear. I know that this trial was placed in front of us for a reason.
I know that Our Heavenly Father loves us and is always there for us.
As much as I wish that we had a job and a place of our own it is nice that Emery gets to grow up around family.
I am just taking a deep breath and believing that another job will be placed in front of us.
I am trying to be grateful for the place we are at in our life.
You can read or watch the rest here: https://www.lds.org/grateful-in-any-circumstances
